The photo on my blog is of me with the camera in front of my face. A pretty standard photo for a photographer, and one I feel very comfortable showing.
In keeping with my intention to connect and share more this year, I signed up for Susannah Conway's Photo Meditations course. I loved the tag line....."Infusing Your Images With Soul". Since it began, I have learned so much and have been inspired by not only Susannah, but also by the many talented photographers that are participating and sharing as well.
Of course all the assignments are optional and that was my first thought when she began talking about self portraits this week. Not interested.....sorry, not enough time. But I soon realized that there was a reason why I was resisting and a reason why this assignment is included in the course. This is what she wrote: "We are worthy of being seen... by ourselves and the world.............If we are willing to share our self portraits with others we are in effect saying: here, look at me." This terrifies me and goes against every rule I was taught growing up. I heard "Don't get too big for your britches" many times as a child. As a result I would much rather blend into the woodwork than be noticed. It may also explain why I am much more comfortable sharing my mistakes and struggles (my debt, creative blocks, etc), than I am showing a photograph of myself.
But don't we share a little bit about ourselves with every image we make? I know we do, but I could also use that as an excuse. So I decided to work on the assignment. What follows is a progression of sorts. I start out timidly. A reflection in a puddle - that works doesn't it?
Growth was not going to occur if this was as far as I got in the assignment. So I became a little braver and a little more creative. I dedicate this image to my old phone. I call it my "Android" shot. (If you have one of these phones you will know why.)
Then something strange started to happen. I was having fun! I had gone upstairs to put something away in the medicine cabinet when I noticed the light and my reflection in the round mirror that comes off the wall. Now that would be interesting......(actually bathroom shots are very common). So I ran downstairs, got my
camera phone and started playing some more.
In some ways I may still be hiding a bit. I found I felt better about the shots of me with my reading glasses. I also think sharing something about your environment is important. Yes - I have an iPod dock in almost every room of my house (the rooms I use anyway).
I had trouble deciding if I was even going to write this post. Why would anyone want to see photos of me? But that's not what this is about. It's part of my story and my creative journey. The fact that I am even willing to do this, says quite a bit. (If you are reading this, it means I clicked "Publish" which I haven't done yet.......)
PS - If you want to play with this or already have a self portrait, leave me a link where I can see them. It's only fair................
PPS - I discovered that if you use the feature on the iPhone that turns the camera around so it's looking at you, the file size is much smaller, which reduces the quality of the image. Maybe there is a button or something that changes that. Does anyone know?