Thursday, June 2, 2011

Choices and Definitions......

It's been a crazy couple of months. Ever since I gave notice on my old studio, it's been a deluge of activity requiring both physical and emotional reserves.

Making the decision to move was not easy, but once made, everything else was put on hold. After the mad rush to be ready for our first open studio on Second Saturday, I had a class to prepare for the following week. Small changes had to be made because of the new space, but I pulled it off and had a great weekend with the six students that attended.

No time to rest though......five days later I was on a plane to Baltimore to attend a family wedding and returned on Monday night to a couple of deadlines and appointments scheduled throughout the week. All things I had put off because of the move.

But this is life................I didn't know I was moving my studio when I planned the workshop or the trip back east. It just worked out that way. I am tired, but also energized by everything I have going on. In addition to the book project, I have a gallery show opening September 7th.

Energized yes - but also a little overwhelmed. This is where intention and planning come in. I am hoping that I will be able to get everything done in such a way that my husband won't be longing for the days I was away every weekend at art festivals.

I can plan and "intend" all I want,  but I also know how I operate. I get in trouble when I start comparing myself to others. I am astonished by everything other people seem to get done and think I have to accomplish just as much as they do. Frenzy develops, panic sets in and all bets are off.

But it doesn't have to be this way. This is where I get to stop and make conscious choices - who do I want to be and how do I want to work?

You have heard it a thousand times.....you have to define success for yourself. Right now my definition includes having the freedom to express myself authentically while living not necessarily a balanced life, but one that allows for some spontaneity, with time to enjoy my family and friends.

Does my definition of success include the financial rewards of getting my work out there? Of course it does. I would be lying if I said it didn't. It has been my experience however, that when I am in touch with why I have chosen to pursue this path, there seems to be a little less struggle and a tiny bit more flow.

So there you go..... see what happens when I have twelve hours to sit on a plane and think?

How do you define success?



©2011 Dianne Poinski
 
While in Baltimore, we took a quick side trip to DC. The magnolias were blooming and for some reason seemed to be closer to the ground than the ones on our trees here in Sacramento, making them much easier to photograph.

2 comments:

  1. Dianne--this is a topic that is close to my heart. I've spent a long time learning not to compare myself to others and instead, placing the focus back on myself. I ask myself "what feels right to me?--In this moment?
    So far "success" seems to come after after I've been absorbed in the moment--whether that's time in my studio, working with kids at the hospital, being with family or helping my art get out into the world. I feel most successful when there's some combination of the above--not to mention some time in my garden. Thanks for asking the question:)

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  2. Thank you Hannah! Staying in the moment and being true to yourself. A perfect recipe....

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