As of today, I have not signed anything confirming that will actually take place. It is my understanding that this will simply be a formality, but I think I will feel a little better once I have it all in writing. While I wait for that, I have had plenty of time to process (and obsess about) the fact that I am leaving behind what I know and trading it in for the unknown.
I celebrated six years in my studio last month. I never had a job that lasted that long. Before I moved into the house I am living in right now, I relocated many times. Each time was a new adventure.
The truth is, I love change. I thrive on it and have come to embrace it and welcome it into my life. So why am I struggling with this?
Maybe I am out of practice. I believe you have to flex those muscles and like any other muscle, it will weaken without use.
It doesn't help that I am leaving a large space with incredible light, in close proximity to other artists and a gallery with a good amount of traffic. It only takes one person to say "Really? Are you sure about this?" to make me immediately start questioning myself.
But I have made the decision and I am sticking with it. Many factors were considered when I was trying to decide if this was a smart move or not. After reviewing the list, I am even more convinced I am doing the right thing.
I began sharing that list here and then deleted the whole thing. I think I just wanted to justify it some more. Let's just say there are financial, business and personal reasons for moving.
I will share photos and probably videos of my new space after I start moving in. In the meantime, I am spending as much time as I can in my current studio, taking advantage of the beautiful light and filling up my hard drive with enough floral images to last me a long time...............
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