Why? Why did I think I needed this very expensive piece of machinery? I needed it because don’t you know……………I was too busy to place stamps on postcards. I needed a machine to do this for me.
In my defense, this was during the height of my art festival frenzy and I was mailing out hundreds of postcards for every show…..but really…..was the time I saved worth around $4000? What about the two able bodied teenagers I had living in the house?
I am not bringing this up just because it uncovers some truth about why I am in the debt I am in, but it also sheds some light on how I was living.
That time where I thought I needed a Pitney Bowes machine seems like a lifetime ago and it was – a different life, one I can’t imagine living right now. Do you know that for a few years I spent Thanksgiving setting up for show in another town while my family enjoyed a turkey feast without me? Not something I am very proud of.
I don’t think it’s a coincidence that lately I have been devouring books about people who quit or got laid off from their fast paced, important jobs only to discover a life filled with more meaning and in most cases, more fun. There may be some clues too as to why I am considering taking a 15 hour train trip to a destination an hour away by Southwest Airlines. I believe my inner Thoreau is looking for my inner Walden Pond.
I thought that taking a break from shows would automatically lead to a slower lifestyle, but that hasn’t happened yet. It is still a work in progress. I recently found myself drinking two triple lattes a day, eating on the run and staying up late to get work done. Would Thoreau approve?
As I get ready to send back my postage meter, I am again reflecting about how I can work and live differently. Awareness is the first step. That and giving back machines I should have never had in the first place. Another lesson learned………….