There is one thing that has become crystal clear in the last few weeks and it has to do with time and my relationship with it. I am often overwhelmed, discouraged, and fragmented. This is not new information – I have shared this before - but having these little “side jobs” is not helping. I can’t seem to find my rhythm.
I am being encouraged by some wiser, more experienced entrepreneurs to schedule more down time. On more than one occasion in the last few weeks I have been asked the question “what do you do for fun?” My immediate response usually has something to do with my photography, but I am learning that there might be a better answer.
With the help of a "time tracking" website I found called freshbooks.com, I recently discovered that the actual time I spend working on “photography” is very small when compared to the other tasks I have to do to keep my studio doors open. Some of this information is very illuminating, but at the same time it’s also painful.
So what does all of this have to do with “Gardening”? Everything.......
Every year I long to have a beautiful garden with flowers, vegetables and herbs. Every year I think the same thing…………."who has time for that?" I am not kidding when I say “every year”. Not just the last couple of years, but probably the last 10 years or maybe more.
Now if I had a friend that came to me and said “I really want to (fill in the blank) but I don’t have time” I would probably council them to listen to their heart and rearrange their priorities so they could find the time to do what they wanted to.
I haven’t been so kind with myself. After all, I have a financial tunnel to dig out of and the only way to do that is by working my ass off. Right.....? This is just the kind of thinking that got me into this mess.
So in this very public forum I am going to share my attempts to transform my ugly side yard into (and I am going to be very realistic here)…….just something nicer.
No grand illusions. I just want to start something and maintain it. It would be my tendency to want to dive in, spend money and burn myself out. No……………I want to enjoy this and for once change “every year” into “this year I began it…………”
It won’t hurt to have more flowers to photograph either…….. And I don’t care what other people say – when I am photographing flowers, I am in the “zone” and I do not consider that to be “work”.
PS I would like to thank Egmont over at "Four Seasons in a Life" for featuring me on his blog. Check out this wonderful site and make sure your speakers are on!