Friday, October 30, 2009

Checking & Comparing

I am tired of writing about money and my computer, but I feel like sharing an observation I had this week.

In my post about my hard drive crashing, I told the story about how I lost a year’s worth of Quicken transactions and I am no longer able to call up numbers with the press of a button.

Most of you also know that I chose to take a break from doing art festivals in 2009. A very large percentage of my income over the years has come from doing these shows, but on the flip side, most of my expenses (and my debt) are a direct result of my time on the circuit.

With the help of Quicken, I developed a bad habit this year. I found myself checking my “numbers” regularly. Comparing what I made and spent last year to what was happening this year. I believe I was using this information to convince myself that I had made the right decision about the art festivals. Since I have lost most of the transactions from this year I can no longer check those figures.

At first I noticed a little anxiety about this, but gradually I came to the conclusion that I have been spending too much time obsessing about the business side of things and not enough time thinking about my art. I am really embarrassed to admit this.

This realization has given me a lot to think about. Only good can come from this. Whether or not you believe in this sort of thing – I am convinced that losing my “numbers” was not an accident. It was a wakeup call and I am listening.

In a related development, something has gone wrong with my “Google Analytics” so I can no longer check how many people are reading my blog. Again, I think this is probably a good thing and possibly another sign that I need to stop checking, comparing and obsessing and just go take some pictures!

P.S. I wrote most of this yesterday. This morning I was also unable to check my website stats…………….. It’s Halloween – right?

2 comments:

  1. What is it with us photographers? I too love checking numbers, stats, all sorts of things! And yet, I like what the universe is telling you - which is just forget about it for a while and go take pictures! I hope you do - cause I love seeing them!

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  2. I agree that it is so easy to get into the watching numbers! Thanks for the reminder Dianne - I am very much in favor of ' listening to what the universe is telling me' - so your post was very apt!!

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