Now what would it be like if when asked, I say “I am an artist”? My first reaction is “oh I couldn’t say that, it sounds so pretentious” Why is this? Isn’t that what my art festival ID badges all say? Why can’t I say it? I would still have to describe “my art” because no matter what I call myself, I still feel an explanation is needed.
Maybe this dilemma is a result of a question I was asked at an art festival once. While viewing my work, someone asked “is this photography or art?” By the look on my face, it was apparent to them that they had asked the wrong question and they quickly mumbled something and left.
It has taken many years for photography to be recognized as an art form, and perhaps I am doing a disservice to the craft itself by my reluctance to declare with confidence and enthusiasm “Yes, I am an Artist!” Just writing this is hard. The committee in my head has gone into overdrive. “What do you mean you are an “artist”? “Your brother is the artist, not you!” “You never took art classes in school, how do you justify calling yourself an artist”. This is just a small sampling of the cacophony of voices in my head.
Sometimes I wonder if it would have been easier to have become an accountant. That would have rolled off my tongue easily………. but at what price?